Hawking's Paradox...

I know the title of this blog might be plausible...just to clarify things I am not gonna write about Black Hole Information Theory or more famously known as Hawking's paradox..Much has been said and written about it for 30 years whn this was published by the great physicist Stephen Hawking...Although I cannot deny that this has nothing to do with it...

I usually write when something inspires me...Stephen Hawking is one man who never ceases to amaze me...Despite his physical inabilities he uses every day to make a mark in the fields of quantum gravity n black holes...Recently I found out the fact that he solved the paradox immediately after he recovered from pneumonia which almost proved fatal to him...the fact that even when he was sick and close to death his mind did not stop working...A real genius...one of a kind...

Pyar ki raah mein....

My first attempt at writing Hindi..

प्यार की राह में बिखरा नहीं मैं पल बर,
देखा जो तुम्हें एक नजर जाग उठा मेरा जिगर |
हर पल मेरे ख्वाबों मैं तू,
जीना है मुझे सपनो में क्यों ||

உயிர்துளி.....

பனித்துளியாய் பல மணித்துளிகள் கறைந்ததடி உன் கண்மணியில்,

துளித்துளியாய் வந்து விழும் சாரல் என் மனதில்,

ஒரு துளியும் உன் விழியில் வருவதனை கண்டால்,

தளராத என் மனமும் துவண்டிடுமே....

Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday.

A beautiful line from American Beauty....I havent cn the movie completely and so dunno the situation in which this appears...but it expresses the exact same emotions I have towards music....

Itz bn quite a while since I wrote somethin....Hv bn busy with lots of things and besides tht dint hv anythin inspirational to write...But hv found one...a big one or rather one of the biggest ones....LOVE...

I was never a huge fan/supporter of Love before marriage though i didn't have anything against it as well....I just had a neutral feeling about it...It was like if u Love someone get married to him/her...if u dnt hv plans for tht dnt do it...thts my principle....

having said all tht therez a tremendous change in perspective I see Love thanks to one of my friends...The guy happens to b my friend although I dnt knw the girl...No lemme rephrase that...I havent met the girl but yes I know her....therez a phrase called selfless love which I thought i could see only on the paper but these people showed it to me...

I know there has bn some probs off late....It is not fair on my part to reveal the cause of the prob but lemme safely say that its a factor outside these two...the way these two are going through pain to keep others happy I dnt know what to say...Beyond tht they want the other to b happy even if they are going thru hell...

I wish I could share couple of the girls messages...they were so touching tht it stung me the instant I read it....They manage to impart some amount of pain from the heart tht created it...I wuld hv bn happy if tht could hv dwindled her pain atleast by the same amount...But unfortunately, as much joy it gives Love hurts more...

I apologize to the two whom I had written about for I hvnt sought their acquiescence to write this...I really dnt have any business knowing/expressing my thoughts about others Love and pain but its just that I wanted to put my feelings in some form...This is my way of prayin to God to put an end to their woe...

Geeky Stuff

I have recently started using SONAR Cakewalk for my recordings. Cakewalk is an amazin Sound synthesis software with some excellent features. Previously I had used Cool Edit Pro (now known as Adobe Audition) and FL Studio (earlier known as Fruity Loops)...Cakewalk kinda integrates some features of the above. SO I went for SONAR.

But it was not easy to use it. The first time I opened it on my laptop(IBM T43) I was shocked to see an error "Soundcard not supported". I selected "Use anyway" option (like I had any other choice) and started the software. But due to the soundcard issues I was not able to mix down the project into mp3 or to any other form.

So what did I do?? I bought Creative Audigy 2 NX USB sound card. It is darn costly but considering the features and the sound quality it gives both in Playback and Recording it is worth the money. Now I integrated my laptop and the sound card and the horizon is broadened. I am opened upto Soundfonts and MIDI processing with this. I do have to start recording though...My next target "MAudio Pro" - The best Sound card available in market.

Lucky 13
Nothing can be written to glorify a mother or motherhood. So I won't attempt to. The best thing that has happened to not only humans but all living things...Mother..

So heres wishing "Happy Mothers day" to my wonderful mom and all the mothers and to all the children dont restrict your celebration jus for this day...

Baatein...

Its been quite sometime I actually wrote somethin for a post....Hv bn more busy with my other keyboard than the one on my laptop....:)..To keep in touch and just for the sake of it I though I'll write a post...

I am that kinda person who just cannot write when I want to...I mean have tried to but I don't quite get the flow...If something that inspires me or influences me it will definitely be on my blog....More the intensity better the post...

One such thing that inspired me recently was ofcourse music...Heard one Beautiful song from Cheeni Kum "Baaten hawayen" for which Illayaraaja has given music to...You don't see Raaja giving music to many Hindi movies...The director Balakrishna happens to be a huge fan of him and so it has happened...Good for me n many others....The song is jus too gud to be explained by words...outta world...heard it cont for 4 times the first time heard it....

The tune of the song "Kuzhaloothum" from a movie called "Mella thirandhadhu kadhavu" is reused. You don't see Raaja reusing anything...But this is worth it...Man 20 yes later also the music is apt for the time...Yeah the backgrounds and the interludes are changed...but still it does not sound like a remix even to me who has listened to the old song some thousands of times....

The first interlude is completely western classical... no composer in India can even think of composing on the same level in Western classical as hez done...Jus awesome...to be frank the second interlude was a lil disappointing initially coz of the first ones influence....usage of percussion n overdrive....very unlike Raaja...But he manages to give back the beauty with a excellent piano solo befre the lead....

I named the post "Assorted" initially thinkin I'll jus mention ths song and talk abt other things...but jus couldnt stop....Listen to the song...You'll appreciate the post then....

Kadhalin Remix....

My attempt to remix my old song Kadhalin Padhayil...Have used the same tune with some enhancements but have put in completely new preludes and backgrounds includin bass tracks...this is the prelude part of the song....



During the recording session....:)

Kadhalin Padhayil (On the path of love)....

To the best of my knowledge this is my first full fledged composition...I filled in the lyrics in Tamil...Not tht am not comfortable writing in English, but the song has Tamil influence on it Thanks to Illayaraaja...Have tried vocal harmony for the first part of the song...can say it came out better than I expected..

The tracks of the songs undrewent loooots of changes...I dont think this even is the latest version but this is the one I got...I am in the process of re-engineering this song with different bass tracks and the interludes...Will probably improve the tempo the song as well...Coming soon...:)

Reservation - Death of the Merit System

It was the day of my counselling for Engineering colleges. The guy behind me in the line ended up in a Anna Univ and I did not. The reason was just simple. I belonged to Forward Caste and he did not. It has been more than 6 yrs since the event took place..The memory is still green in my mind.

Years have passed and I moved on from my Engineering to my job...The lesion had began to ebb...Now the government has inflicted a new one...It wouldnt be exaggerating if I said I was completely blown down for couple of days after reading the news of new reservation policy by our Government...A glimmer of hope when Supreme Court put a stay on the bill in late March. Even then you can't savor the moment...TamilNadu govt calls out for a bandh opposing SC's judgement (like the current 69% reservation is not enough)...i didnt know to laugh or cry...

It really hurts not as a forward caste element but as a rightful citizen to see the governments short sightedness...I feel a a tinge of joy when I see the dollar value weakening against the rupee...On one side India is growing rapidly on economical front in the global backdrop...But things like these worry me about the future of deserving umpteen teens and future of our country which is in their hands...

Where is this country heading to? I am not some religious chauvinist against backward people nor am I completely against reservations..there should be reservations for well deserving students who cannot afford a degree...Not some son of a rich industrialist who neither will value the degree and worst takes up the seat of an eligible cadidate...

The bottomline is the canonical form of reservations should be based on economical mileu and not caste structure. reservation should really benefit less fortunate people, to unearth hidden diamonds and not compromise a well deserving student and a powerful India. Jai Hind!!

Talkin Love

One of my first and favorite compositions...there were many comments on the mood of the song..I remember one of my friends commenting that it flaunts pathos...But to me its talkin love... Thats the reason I didnt want to add in lyrics to this song...coz if I do so Love will be confined to only one language...Since Love is universal I used the universal language..."Music"

This creation was done during my early days of experimenting in music...In that context it is raw and needs refining..Nevertheless it is closer to my heart...Mebbe coz I got all the tracks in one shot...I didnt hv to re-record any of the tracks...n also I used G- Minor Scale for this song which happens to be my fav as well....

Stopping by the Woods.....

Most of us would have come across this Wordsworth's work sometime in our academic phase...As good Wordsworth is in painting the nature's scenic with his words its hard for us esp in India to feel how it feels like...The main reason is most of us have not weathered a rough cold weather and that too with snow...So that is why snow was a wonderful and an experience I was looking forward to...

Man can never define natures rules and set it limits...When everyone thought it would snow in December it created sunny evenings with cozy temperatures and when summer should have started in March it is snowin...I dnt knw if the phrase "cats n dogs" can b usd for snowin like we use it for rainin...but thn u mus hv got an idea of the intensity...

It was last Friday n the snow storm started in the mornin...it was by far the heaviest snow fall this winter season...it was a "solid" pour down (literally ;)) for the full day...Inspite of tht I went to office n understandably the office was like a haunted palace....takin out a handful of ppl here n thr the office was empty...now the return trip was fun...it strted snowin heavily n the roads were not cleared n cab which I took was skiddin all the way...

For a normal person reachin home was the major concern...not to me...I reachd home n went to starbucks (one major coffee shop chain here) which was some gud 6 to 8 mies with the snow still fallin...man that was one gr8 experience...seein snow everywhere...

nature sure has a way of showin what purity means...so immaculate n white...itz like the whole earth was immersed in white paint...poets have always compared girls to he moon...actually snow would also serve a gud metaphor for a girl...pure, calm and when u take it in ur hands it jus shy's (melts) away but leaves a trace even after gone... I am not sure if my words do the justice of expounding the full feelin...but guess if even Wordsworth cant wat am I??

3.14
pi...the one number that represents both simplicity and complexity...It remains till date one of the important figures in the world of physics and for mathematicians...The number is important to me for one more reason...3.14 or 14th March -Birthday of the girl who loves me unconditionally and taught me to love...My niece...

Shez the first person who I have seen her growing up from a baby...The main reason is that I was the youngest in the family and didnt really get a chance to babysit...To be honest have never been comfortable around babes..oops sorry babies....But thn this kid changed it all...Its amazing how such a little being can show so much love...

For some reason I dont know, I am her fav person...My sis says she'll wake up from sleep to talk to me when she hears me on the phone...She turns 4 today and know what she wanted for her B'day when I asked her...She said "I dont want anythin...I jus want you to be here"....God wht am I doin here??!!!!!!

Science and Religion

One of the most intriguing conversations I had ever had....Myself and my close buddy Sujay (or SuJ as he calls himself these days) have a reputation of some outta of world conversations...and believe me the below conversation is outta world...i mean literally too...posting this with his full consent..read on...

Sujay: wanted to ask this.. saw anbe sivam rite
Ram: yup
Sujay: train crashes.. boy suffering.. timely blood by maddy.. then he dies
Ram: hmm
Sujay: maddy ponders abt this
saying " what kind of design is this "
thats a very very deep Q
Ram: yup I remember
culdt agree with u more
Sujay: i mean i cudnt think of any thinnest thot of answer
Ram: illada its really deep
I mean we really are not tht big enough to get answers for these da
Sujay: he suffers and dies of young age.. ok we can call karma
true.. but was jus pondering
Ram: how do u define karma?
wat we think as right might be wrong
n vice versa
Sujay: based on what u do in prev birth (thats what gen opinion says rite)
Ram: yeah it is
Sujay: karmic rights and wrongs arent human based rite ?
Ram: yup
I mean itz all the purpose of your life
Sujay: matrx style
Ram: actually ur blog on Saddam made me to think this
u never knw wat Saddam's life intent was
Itz not tht I support him or anythin
Sujay: hahaha.. in fact my mom's spontaneity on hearing his death.. naan bit adichitaen ;)
Ram: :)
but seriously therz a possibility
Sujay: of him going 2 heaven ??
Ram: no I dnt want him 2
but the thing his tht might have bn his purpose in life
i mean u knw the story of Ravana rite
Sujay: yeah.. jus 1 mistake in his whole life
Ram: which led to many of his mistakes
Sujay: now I get it what u trying 2 say
Ram: like desecrating Hanuman, abandoning his brither
etc
Sujay: i will paraphrase
the kid in anbesivam;
his purpose is to show maddy what life is and in turn make maddy realise his purpose
Ram: mebbe
but tht might not be his sole purpose
Sujay: like he had his positive karma during his death bed helping maddy get more +ve karma ?
Ram: tht we might nvr knw
Sujay: hmm.. none knows actually
Ram: yup except for the enlightened ones prob
Sujay: some complex design which will actually have some meaning not comprehensible to 99% of humans
Ram: yup perfect
ultimately it might be like a serious of knots...but by jus pullin one out we might get the thread straight
Sujay: most of ppl going for search of the ultimate truth thinking like this rite ?
Ram: I hope so
this is the beginning though
but once u clear one knot everythin might fall into place
but thn its again one way of thinkin
Sujay: this atheists communities dnt think abt these
show me God..Show me God....
Ram: actually am quite intrigued
yeah
my dad said he watched some show on some crap channel where they had this debate
Sujay: vijay tv-da.. even i mentioning that
Ram: hmm
I c
Sujay: torture ..
enna comedy-na even the theists.. even they dint have sufficeint pts
example of theists POV : can see air, oxygen.. god is like that
de 3rd std level-da
Ram: lame
actuala machi offlate am watchin this Science channel here
excellent da
Sujay: hmm
Ram: full cosmos, black hole
seriously excellent
u wnt even change channels
wuld u believe I watched cont from 12 to 9 once
avvlo interestin
Sujay: 9 hrs !
cool
Ram: yup
everytime i c tht am convinced of a Supreme being da
Sujay: i thot me awing at the creator is
the diversity
Ram: yeah
ennana the big bang explains everythin frm the start if time
Sujay: diversity of ppl, thots, blackholes, univ
Ram: yeah exactly
but whn it comes to wat happnd before our physics fails
coz ideally all the matter now in this univ was created outta nothin..
Sujay: lots of counter-theories to bigbang rite?
Ram: yeah
but tht is the widely accepted one da
Sujay: hmm..yeah..
Ram: n frankly me 2 accept tht...coz all other theroies hv failed to explain many features
Sujay: hmm
Ram: many features of today's universe
thr was this program of wht univ is made of
Sujay: hmm
Ram: how many dimensions n stuff
they say tht univ is made of minute strings somethin calld String theory
but it culdnt explain one feature
Sujay: but string theroy failing in some aspects is what i read somehere
yeah
Ram: so now they say univ is made of minute elongated tubes
Sujay: hmm
Ram: I was kinda remninded of our sayin Thoonilum iruppar thurumbilum iruppar
we cannot even explain the basic question of how we came into existence
how can we explain God
Sujay: this is a prevalent logic rite.. some asteroid r something crashing into earth
some chemical reactions
n creation of 1st bacteria .. n he usual evlotion theory
Ram: amino acids..athellam ok
but am askin the ultimate question
Sujay: but "life"
Ram: how 'd the asteroid come...how were the planets born
Sujay: oh ok
Ram: itz an accepted theory tht everythin is born outta star
Sujay: but how star ?
Ram: yup
whn the universa started with a big bang
all the matters were thrown out n frm that day on universe has bn expandin
initially the univ entered into a cosmic dark age for abt 2 billion yrs
Sujay: hmm
Ram: thn first stars were born
Sujay: hmm
Ram: durin the death of a star supernova resulted in planets n other heavly bodies
Sujay: but the beginning for all these is the Q
Ram: yeah the main Q is how 'd the first stars come into existence
Sujay: for us not to find this out only God has this theory that Time machines cant go back
;)
Ram: :)
or mebbe hez tellin us all the time n we r simply not lookin at the right place
Sujay: yabba cant imagine the magnitude of stuff da
Ram: too bis
big
Sujay: hehhehheh
gud one !
Ram: really
actual wht u say is gud point
everythin is k..asteroid came n hit
amino acids chemical reaction
all fine...
Sujay: hmm.. read it in one of Dan brown
Ram: lightenin struck
Dan brown??
Sujay: this theory da.. asteriod hitting earth n life comes
Ram: no am askin which book?
Sujay: one stupid book of dan brown da
Ram: I dn remember readin in any of his works
Sujay: u read all 4 ?
Ram: yup
Sujay: de.. ithu.. some astriod in arctic circle
Ram: deception point?
Sujay: yeah..
Sujay: k back 2 what u were saying
Ram: yeah
they say life happened as a result of thousands of coincidences
Sujay: thousands is so small number
Ram: yeah mebbe shuld have put millions
Sujay: so miniscualr worth of creation that is WE, can see so many coincidences
Ram: isnt this an emphatic proof
of existence of somethin greater
Sujay: thats my sole Q
i mean sole answer to the Q
does God exist
see 1 small example
our face is some 5sq inch area eyes, nose, ears mouth thts it
think abt the umber of ppl on earth so far.. trillions
r 2 ppl similar....see the pernuation and combinations
I cannot handle
Ram: too much
actually the way Science is advancing today every new discovery bolsters this
black holes, Singularity, Time Travel, Parallel universe everythin
Sujay: s.. r ppl ie scientiest short of Qs
90% of scienties are hard core theists
Ram: yeah..I go by the greatest mind
Einstein
Ram: he said Science and religion are not diff
Sujay: both searches same
means r diff
200 yrs 4m now.. ther will religion only in txt books.. but faith in God will increase
specifically hinduism.. as a way of life..
Ram: yup
u said it
Sujay: ther will be temples.. where ppl go n pray..
Ram: :)
Sujay: i personally feel that is enuf..
well, enuf is very dicey term
Ram: Einstein "The most beautiful and most profound experience is the sensation of the mystical. It is the sower of all true science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead. To know that what is impenetrable to us really exists, manifesting itself as the highest wisdom and the most radiant beauty which our dull faculties can comprehend only in their primitive forms - this knowledge, this feeling is at the center of true religiousness."
Sujay: machi.. seems a summing up of what we discussing ;)
Ram: yup :0
:)
Sujay: eintein sonna thaan nambuvaanga
Ram: the crux of our discussion in 5 beautiful lines
appo kuda doubt than
Sujay: hmm
?
Ram: people have swelled up egos
they dnt wanna b proved wrong the thing that they have thot is right their whole life time :)
Sujay: hahhaha.. true true
ppl who cant accept reality.. will try to change the reality
Ram: yup u said it
first let them understand general Theory of relativity
then we 'll explain God to them
Sujay: i mean i get what u saying
if u can undertsand a man;s creation
HTF u gonna understand HIS creation
Ram: perfect
Sujay: so many disturbing Qs also da
Ram: like
Sujay: why evil ? y natural disasters ?
y tsunami..?
one which disturbed me the most is " kumbakonam fire tragedy where 30 odd or 60 kids fumed to death
Ram: seriously...
Sujay: i cried..literally after reading in vikatan
i mean..vikatan has written in such a way to kindle emotions..
but seriously whn we think of it
Ram: ofcourse da...the very first Q we get is y??
y kids who dont even have the discreetion of Good from bad
Sujay: yes.. athvum vikatan;s specific incidents poduvaan.. 1 kid wanting 2 save another n bot dying...like tht..
appaaa.. ennala control-a panna mudiyala
Ram: hmm
Sujay: kids man !!
gen we have this hear rite
till 5 yrs of kid.. god speaks to the kids
i mean i have seen it kinda personally.. have seen vivek n rohini grow
Ram: hmm yeah
Sujay: i mean. when they r kids they cry n goto sleep
within seconds.. they sleep n actaully laugh
kandippa god's intervention illaiya enna ???
u mite observed that in samhita also rite?
Ram: 100%
really cannot even come up with a slightest of idea
Sujay: life is.. i mean, undefinable
Ram: yup
too many things and layers
but eventually tied to each other
I mean we r less than an insignificant speck whn compared to the universe
Sujay: do u think humans or evolved humans some may be 1000yrs 4m now will able to untie the knot
Ram: I really doubt da
Sujay: hmm.. same here
i mean i dont want to
Ram: itz too huge da
I mean even today there r saints who realize things
Sujay: if somebody is able to untie the knot and find God and..
Ram: but thn even if they teach us, everyine has to have the maturity to understand things
rather shuld I say spiritual maturity
Sujay: universal truth.. then He is God..
Ram: yup
thts wat Advaita is
Sujay: our basic truth lies on the fact that nobody is above r at par to God
Ram: true...but a part
Sujay: all saints realisation, I belive is, that u cant untie the knot ;)
Ram: I dnt knw :)
am not one
Sujay: hhhahha.. jus said it in lighter sense
Ram: :) but if you see Saints have had mystical powers
Sujay: but thats all not now rite ?
Ram: mebbe
not in the ppl who show they have though
Sujay: yeah.. thats my pt.. God or God thru saints wont show miracles
they dont have 2 show..to prove that they r God..
Ram: not necessarily....
Sujay: means
Ram: takin the liberty to reword ur sentence
Sujay: hmm
Ram: they might display miracles but that will not be for their material needs
like fame or money...u can take the eg. of Sri Ragavendra or Shirdi Saibaba
Sujay: u r echoing my thots basically
they r sent by God to make some realisation..
Ram: Abyuktanam Adharmasya thadathmanam Smrijamyaham
Sujay: thats what they say.. atharmam thalaithookum podhu Kadavul wil make us realise
Ram: exactly
Sujay: have I written what u said in sanskrit?
Ram: almost
Sujay: i mean, man.. good coincidence
Ram: as always :)
Sujay: i had the same thot but cudnt frame it
xln plz
:)
Ram: Atharmam thalai thookum pothu Naan avatharippen...I'll incarnate whenever Adharma increases in the world(Lord Krishna)
Sujay: thats not almost da.. 100% i thot the same
Ram: gr8

Irony so called "life"

The thought process was actually triggered by a mail chain spawned by my friends....The discussion was basically about the good ol days we had durin our coll. times....We were reminiscing those times....

Itz bn close to an year since I set foot in the country of stripes n stars....Even after this stay here I am happy that I stick to the saying "Janani Janma Boomischa Swargadhapi gariyasi" (Your motherland is analogous to heaven)...With no offence to anyone to be frank I have never bn a big fan of uncle Sam and neither did I have a strong desire to come here ...

The money is good here, roads are neat, no pollution but still there's some 'x' factor thats missing over here...Some people might deny this but guess thts subjective..So sayin I'll keep the arena closed for any debates coz I realise am diverting from my topic....I am still reminded of the times I spent over there with my parents n friends....Somehow our lives are spent mostly in thinking about future or recollecting our past...Hardly does anyone live in the present day and present moment coz of the simple reason is tht itz so darn hard....

Time not only moves mercilessly but also with haste...we have been successful in life in our own ways...have almost reached the place of what we dreamed of bein in the college days...but now after reachin tht place wanna go back to the ol' times....how ironical and i guess that justifies my label to this blog...

But guess all good things must come to an end...or else those times wouldnt get the worth they deserve...but the natures best way to relive those moments r the memories...the memories we'll carry with us for the rest of our lives...To quote one of my friends "Time moves but memories don't"